On myself

Over the past few days, I've actually noticed how much of a negative self-image I have. All joking aside, I consider myself more unattractive and chunky than I probably am. I've found that this has made my self-confidence very easy to lose. My personality probably makes this worse. I don't like to admit failure at anything. I don't like to admit that I am not perfect at anything. I avoid things I don't do well, instead of attempting to at least practice at it. I keep myself distant from others. There are people whom I've known for years that still don't really know me, because I don't know me. I have too many sides to myself. I have my online side, my friends side, my family side, and probably a few more that I don't realize I have. I believe that the true me is rather unsure and wanting reassurance. I just don't fucking know myself. Some sort of identity crisis? Maybe. Rambled on too long? Probably.

That was long and rambly. Hopefully, it has some sort of flow.